I'm Sorry

Late at night I get thoughtful, and sentimental, and emotional...  I'm reading over that old fight, the one that changed us and broke us apart for way to long.  We both aired our dirty laundry,  We were so you and immature and bad at spelling.  I didn't want to let you go but in the motion of doing that I did.  I used stupid threats and said stupid stuff.  And Dale was poisioning you and b we both wanted to find ourselves.  We had to find ourselves away from each other, and then when the time was right we found each other again.  I never wanted to let you go.  I wonder what would have happen had we not fought...What would have happend, would we be we, or not.  I'm so sorry.  I feel like and idiot.  I was trying to defend my faith, which I did.  But on that same hand I came off extremly pushy, to the max.  Metal culture is dark lovey, and you fell head first into it.  I wanted to save you, I still do...  We fought on Youtube. that's not even a good forum to fight, but we did.  I missed you so much during that time, you found so many other people.  we needed time alone.  I had to move away, we have to grow.  I feel so guilty about it, I'm always going to, but only late at night, when I'm alone and I'm free to think and feel.  I want to write you a million sorry notes, pouring myself over and over.  we were both in the wrong, the very wrong.  I'm so extremly thankful I have you back.  I love you more than I did then,  In the most non lesbo way ever, :)  I miss you, I wish I could spend all those days we missed together, talking and laughing.  I do and don't regret it.  I'm sorry I hurt you and I'm sorry I let you hurt me.  I'm sorry I let you become friends with idiots, and get dumped by an idiot pot head.   I'm sorry I got so jeleous of you,a nd creeped you and hated your friends and how many you made when I made one.  I'm sorry I'm writing you this laye at night, with no names, and that I said we would never talk about this again but here I am talking about it again.  I'm sorry a million times over.  And I love you so much, I'm sorry I hurt you.  I can't wait to see you in 3 days.   okay I'm back to my self again.  I just wanted to air this, and I did.  I'm sorry to all of you who this is not directed to, and who don't understand this/